MomenT of TrutH

9.30 am

In the meeting room-attend the morning meeting

But my mind is not there.

Last evening conversation keep playing in my head...which is does kill me softly-

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'Axim,come....there's a few things i need you to work on'-Mr.L,my so-called Boss did called me to his room

I'm so excited to see him since this is my final chances to get clarification about my leave status.

i walked into his room-and before i could say one word-

''ok,you listen..on 1,2,3,of August i'm gonna be in Port Dickson and in 4,5, and 6 next week i've got another meeting with CFO to attend at HQ..so here's da deal-i'm sorry to say that you leave are not going to be approved since there's no stand by person at this station when i'm gone-and i'm sorry to say again you really have to cancel your trip-maybe some other trip may help you-i think later on i'm going to give you some other precious time to cpver up this matter''

Oh gosshhhh i knew this will coming..

''Boss,da thing is i'm already planned this important trip...like i was said before this may not sounds important to you..but it does to me..''

i still trying to beg him for mercy-trying to let him know how i want this so bad.

Before he could say anything,i continued:

''what about flight ticket-hotel booking-transportation booking-and everything's-''

Then My boss replied

''You have no choice-just cancelled it and i think that's gonna be ok-mmmm by da way how much does the flight ticket cost you??perhaps we could do something about it''

''Boss,listen...this aint about money or what..i just need to be there-just want to be with 'my family'-believe me,aint no price you can pay for that..'' i replied back..

In his Defense,Mr.L:

''You know what..i've got so much pressure from the top too...i also just couldn't understand why they did arrange everythings like did-in last minute called-i know this was hard for you to take it,but this is what we have to prioritize about...work always comes first bla bla bla bla bla bla bla.......bla bla bla....

(i couldn't remember clearly what does he mumbling about because i'm already feel irritated with this 'lecturing')

Then i'm quickly tell him:

''What if i'm just going..because i dont think i could cancel this..''

(i just dont know what to say anymore..)

With smile on his face,he replied:

''Then you already know that our appraisal time is coming this next september right???i'm afraid that probably will effect Your KPI later on...''

-Short,simpe yet very threatening from that synical face.

As my boss started to talk about his AUTHORITY-i know this argument will lead to nowhere for me-and i know that i'm already lose...totally lose..

In a weak tone i just can said,

''well thank you...if you've said so looks like i've no other options then..''

It is so useless to drag myself into this Argument-because after all-HE'S DA BOSS-and Boss always right no matter what..

MY BATTLE IS OVER FOR NOW.

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'If there is no other issues then i would like to adjourned this meeting' said our GM..

i'm awaked from the 'nightmare',and just realize that the morning meeting is over.

yeah,i'm a day dreamer...

Yet a fighter that already lose before he could FIGHT in the WAR.